Wednesday, January 7, 2009

2009 Journaling/Blogging Challenge #1

Okay, I had this whole thing writtened out, and then my computer crashed. Ugh!
Yesterday, my son Nathan who is 3 really just irritated me. He destroyed the house, took the both of mine and his sheets off the beds, threw all his toys all over the place, would not stop screaming, and was trying to bite and scratch me, which lead for me to get the soap because he bit me! (Thats the only way he stops biting!) By the end of the day, I was saying outloud "I can't do this anymore!" and by the time he went to bed, I crashed. I was beyond tired!
Sometimes I cannot deal with the stress.

So today, I have been so emotional. He is so much better, but I keep on saying to myself..."its not supposed to be like this!" If you told me this would be my life, I would just laugh...being a single mom is so hard. I get help from my parents yes, but still, its very hard. like right now, he's in my bedroom, sheets are stripped again, and my stuff is all over the place. I just never thought my life would be like this...I never thought that I would be a single parent. But here I am. Sorry, I just need to get my feelings out. No, I do not get any child support, and nathan's father isn't around to be in Nathan's life. He is in Afghan. right now. However, he does not get the HERO award, when he hasn't called his son in a month and a half, and didn't even call his own son on his birthday!

Anyways, I've met a girl off of WWW.CAFEMOM.COM and she is really sweet. Nathan and her son get along well. We are going to the parade, and to a snowpatch! It doesn't snow in florida at all, so, they are going to (make) snow!! I am so excited! lol
Oh, that DATE that I had...he hasn't called me since the gator's football team won. Oh well, I guess it wasn't ment to be...but thats okay. I know what I am looking for.

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